Sunday, April 20, 2014


At this time I would wish to express an aspect of my life that I have long feared would lose the respect of my parents, family, and many of my friends. This is something I have wrestled with and have slowly come to grips with over the last several years. I will keep this brief so let's get to it.

I do not know that the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints is the one and only true church on the earth that enables mankind to return to God. I do not know that Jesus Christ is my Savior and Redeemer.

There. I said it.

I could list many more details about specific areas of my testimony or lack thereof, but it is easier to just say that I do not know many things. However, just because I do not know these things doesn't mean I know the opposite of them to be true.

So what do I know or believe?

I do believe and hope in a God that knows me and loves me. I believe that God wants above all things for me and for everyone else to be happy. If that is God's will for me, then my will is aligned with His. Like all other human beings, I struggle and fall short in this pursuit of happiness.

I believe happiness depends upon me to first discover what truly makes me happy and then following that path. Like the LDS church, I have found and strongly believe that adhering to the following values will increase my happiness.
  • Following the law of chastity, specifically abstaining from sex before a committed marriage and avoiding activities such as masturbation and pornography.
  • Abstaining from strong and addictive substances such as alcohol, drugs, and etc.
  • Frequently taking time to meditate, reflect, and connect with God.
  • Giving selfless service.
  • Loving all mankind regardless of opinion, actions, culture, gender, economic status, and etc. (Matthew 22:39)
  • Living within my means and staying out of debt.
  • Being honest.
  • Being actively grateful.
  • Delaying gratification.
  • Taking care of my body including eating healthy and regularly exercising. 
The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints has been wonderful in helping me learn about God, living a value driven life, and helping me to become a better person. Because of this, I plan to continue participating in many functions of the church because I know how it can be a force for good in my life.

My testimony has gone through many changes throughout my life and I would be naive to think that it will not go through any more changes as I progress through this life. Even if my testimony is constantly in flux, which I am okay with, I will always try to strive for truth and happiness (hence the name of my blog).

1 comment:

  1. You say you don't know, which is understandable. Not many people know in the absolute sense that God is real and that Jesus is The Christ. But do you believe He is? Do you believe that the LDS church is a true church (in the sense of it being established by God)? Your testimony is flux sounds like a common theme for most in the church. Are you working on reducing the flux of your testimony in the way outlined in the scriptures, or are you seeking it out some other way?